Forced myself to wake up at 7 a.m  because I gotta fetch my little sister to my aunt's house . She's currently helping my aunt to work during summer break . Good things that she's learning something  .
So yea , we grabbed the bike and then moved out from the house at 7.30 a.m . Was very cold early in the morning . Is that what mum's been thinking to herself while fetching my sister like what I did now ? I gradually starting thinking in my mum's place . Not easy . Just not easy ...

Finally "delivered" my sister to the place safely haha xD . Watched her went in then only leave . Then I looked at my phone . It's just 8 a.m . So I decided to pay mum a visit . Grabbed few fruits to visit her .
But unfortunately , I have to stop under the bridge due to the heavy rain . But that's not gonna stop me from visiting mum .  So I waited like 15 minutes and the rain still did not stop , I couldn't wait so I wore on the raincoat and went to mum's place . It is a temple . I thought the place would be a good place for mum . Peaceful and beautiful at the same time .

Went there and had a small talk with mum . Told her how good our lives are . That we can live independently . So don't worry . But I still can't stop my tears from falling down . The fact of you leaving this world was too cruel for me . I wished it's just a dream . If it is a dream , please wake me up , mum ...But that's not gonna happen . . . Everyone told me to let go already . But I told them , how could I let go my mum ? It's impossible ..

Then I continued my daily routine back , that is Work , Home , Internet , Sleep ....That's all for today .

Only when we learn how to die then we learn how to live . You never cherish for what you've got until you lost them .  Appreciate the things you have now . Be grateful .

Just came here to write out things that I won't really talked out with anyone . Being unable to talk out with friends, I can only spit it out here . A place where not really much people will pay attention at it , which makes me more comfortable to tell out everything that have happened .

My dearest mum just passed away 2 months ago . I wouldn't tell detailed story about her . Just gonna say, it's related to the last posts that I've posted here . Ever since mum left, my burden increased . I won't complain as that's how my mum been bearing all these years . Being the eldest , means being responsible to take care of the family . My siblings are still young so I need to guide them to a better road . Being eldest , also understand mum the most , of how she worked hard to take care of us all no matter how hard for a single mum can do .  Simply said , mum was too naive and kind . Mistrusted someone which caused the death of my mum .

2 months have passed . The incidents still remain vividly in my memory . I just can't imagine how hard and suffering my mum had bore for all these years . Never being able to enjoy her life , not being able to see all her sons and daughters graduate ,  work  , and married . The most regretful thing is that I will never ever have the opportunity to let me take care of her back . Mum . Thanks for taking care of me . You always thought of us no matter what you've done . I love you .

Not long ago , "A" asked me why I love to ask people cry . I am the first person who ever said that to "A" .
Actually no reason .
It's just , from my point of view , cry is part of our body emotions . We don't have to hide it . We don't have to act strong all the time .

Cry means we had been strong for long . There must be a time where we will fall apart . But do not feel embarassed or scared being laughed . No one would do that . Because true friends will be there for us .

Cry means being ourselves . Because I felt if just hiding your own emotions . Never cry when you should . It's like not even being ourselves anymore . Most of you all think , cry is the sign of weak . I won't deny that , but we won't be strong forever .

Remember "B" ?(If you read my blog)
When I told you to cry when you should . You started to cry .
Ever since then you blamed me for changing you . But I don't see the wrong with it because you are becoming yourself =) .
If that makes me wrong then blame me for making you becoming yourself . I would love to do that .
I know a lot of people won't agree to my opinion .
That's just my point of view . I feel Cry when you should , is when you starting to become stronger .
Stand up from where you fall down .
Never give up .

But I certainly won't agree crying over small cases lah !!!!

-哭是因为逞强了很久-

What's wrong with me ?
Suddenly so active in blogging haha .

So as I posted yesterday . Today going for Karaoke Session with one of my friend , Supposed to have another one , but he last minute FFK . F**k Him =P

Don't mind don't mind . And so , my friend and I went by taxi  early in the morning . Really sleepy haha but excited for karaoke session .. TOO LONG NO SING LAAAA !!!

I don't like to go with a lot of people because won't have any chance to grab the mic ! haha .. and sometimes they will pick songs that you don't even know what the hell was that?
Used to hate karaoke session very much , because everytime I went also got a lot of people . So I ended up sleep there  Used money just to sleep .

But ever since I went alone ( Due to some reasons )  . I started to love sing K . Felt like you can release your stress , your emotions all in once out . Then slowly friends told me that I actually sing quite good  and therefore I started to love singing and practice more . Although I don't talent for that , but it's fun ...I enjoy that moments .  No matter how bad mood are you , after that you'll feel like the burden on your shoulders is already lighten .

Karaoke Session Rocks =)

-男人喜欢呆在KTV，唱着青春随风远去的回忆-

What's wrong with me ?
Suddenly so active in blogging haha .

So as I posted yesterday . Today going for Karaoke Session with one of my friend , Supposed to have another one , but he last minute FFK . F**k Him =P

Don't mind don't mind . And so , my friend and I went by taxi  early in the morning . Really sleepy haha but excited for karaoke session .. TOO LONG NO SING LAAAA !!!

I don't like to go with a lot of people because won't have any chance to grab the mic ! haha .. and sometimes they will pick songs that you don't even know what the hell was that?
Used to hate karaoke session very much , because everytime I went also got a lot of people . So I ended up sleep there  Used money just to sleep .

But ever since I went alone ( Due to some reasons )  . I started to love sing K . Felt like you can release your stress , your emotions all in once out . Then slowly friends told me that I actually sing quite good  and therefore I started to love singing and practice more . Although I don't talent for that , but it's fun ...I enjoy that moments .  No matter how bad mood are you , after that you'll feel like the burden on your shoulders is already lighten .

Karaoke Session Rocks =)

-男人喜欢呆KTV，唱着青春随风远去的回忆-

Just few days ago , I just went to ask for gym inquiry .. After went through few gymS , I finally found a gym nearby my living place plus cheap . NOTES: Is super cheap !
If Leisure Mall Fitness First is RM210 per month , then this gym MUSCLE UP is 3 times cheaper ... Only need to pay Rm70 per month . So I looked around the gym, although it's quite small and narrow but the equipments are definitely complete I guess o.o ( since I not yet do Gym yet)

When I first entered that gym , I was shocked for awhile . Because you can only see muscular people inside . Totally can't even see thin or some slim zombies inside. Seems I'm the only one who look weird in the gym at the time ( One of the zombie XD ) .  Haha . Too awkward !
I believe I will join them soon . So I asked for the fees and membership . Reach my satisfactory and my budget so will be going apply this Sunday and started do it !! Huat Ah !!

Let's improve my life thoroughly =)


By the way , let me introduce a song for you all . I think it's pretty simple and relaxing. Actually it's addicting for me. I listened to it for whole day already . Oh my god.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJS9IgWd0nk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tJS9IgWd0nk 
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