Looking up at the blue vast sky , I had a lot thoughts and feelings onto it .
Sometimes , you felt relaxed looking at it . And sometimes felt sad .
No particular reasons . I just felt that way .
It's been 3 months since mum had left us . Everything just seems so fake to me . But I'm gradually accepting the fact she had really left us .Although I still miss her so much . I would think of her till I'm being scolded by my colleague for not doing my job . The more I think , the more complicated is my feeling .
The other day , my uncle brought grandparents to "问米" . Some kind of summoning ceremony . So ,uncle called me and told me that my mum really missed us .She was sorry for leaving us . And couldn't let us go . Tears started to fall over. I couldn't replied my uncle for awhile . Then uncle continued to tell me that she really died in vain . And not merely by accident. She cannot tell the truth . But she said she deserved it of what had she done in the past . It maybe fake but I chose to believe it because it may be the last message from her . I love you , Mum . If I'm given opportunity , allow me to be your good son again in next life. NO , I must be your son once again .
