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Never look at your life as something insignificant . Never forget,those friends of yours that you loved .

Woot , really damn long since the last time I posted my stuffs ..
Well , many events happened .
I browsed through my blog thoroughly ..
Well there's many events I've written . Some I even forgotten .. I found it funny , most of posts that I posted were so sad .. That's so how pitiful am I towards my Life ... Kinda funny to the younger Me ..Haha . But dude!! People changes times from times .. So do I ! X)

Let's just say about National Service ba?
Yeah , I just finished my National Service ...Heh , I learned lots at there ..
Can't believe that I rejected so much about National Service at first .
Too much memories inside that I can't even describe all at here .
I'll just make it briefly ...

Kinda lazy to write . Haha . Because heart is kinda pain when I think back about it . Because we don't have to worry much inside there . Everything was arranged very well for us . All we have to do is to give our commitments to them .
I met a lot of friends there.  We met each other 24 hours .. We became very close to each other so quickly . Play together ,Joke together , Laugh together, Cry together.. Too much memories .. Thanks to you all . Y'all make my life colorful . I won't ever forget those moments .At least I'm not lonely at the moment .

During the day we apart , everyone cried too much . But I hold myself .. Instead of cry , I thought I should give my gratitute to them by showing my Cheerful smile to them .. While waving hands to them , my heart just felt so pain ... But we still need to move on to our life .. There will be time that we will meet again .
Let us move on to pursue our own dreams. I got my very own dream . I'll take these memories as my Will to continue of pursuing Dream. Once again , I would love to give my millions of Thanks to All of you .. It really might sounds weird , but I love you guys =) . All the best too all of you . Tehee !!!

Finally , it's Christmas .
This year , I'm not joining the countdown at Pavillion .
But we had gathering today . Ya, we had fun , we met everyone . Somehow , just couldn't get excited for it .
I mean , not really happy ..A sudden pang of loneliness overcome me.




Just don't know how much I miss You . I had fun , I am happy ,I entertained everyone ... but without you there , it was meaningless . Hah , just how much I wish you could be there celebrate with me .. I had the same feeling with you , seeing many couples together , won't make me feel any better too ..
Hard ba, be with me ?
But that just won't stop us from being together right?
加油吧。

I will find you when I got the chance. That will be , for sure.
So , don't be sad. Always loving you .

Almost 4 a.m ,gotta go sleep . Tomorrow got second gathering  . I will have fun as much as I can .

Lastly , Merry Christmas Everyone X)

Trip to Ipoh .

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20th Dec 2010

That afternoon , We were preparing for the trip to Ipoh ... Not going to play . But going to erm ,paying respect to my grandfather . Relocating his graveyard.
This time , was the first time , Whole family going Ipoh .. my father's side one la~

Ipoh , my old town . A place where I was born , where I had a lot of friends , where i learned many stuffs ..It's actually pretty memorable .. Going back Ipoh makes me feel nostalgic . Looking back the environment , it doesn't change much , yet I am feeling strange to it .. A place that once my closest place , no longer mine .
 Sitting in the car , looking outside ...Those memories are still vivid ..Very memorable . After all , that's my old town ma XD

We reached around 8pm ba ..(Forgot =.=") All my relatives already reached haha .. Greeted each other .. then we started to play cards , as usual hah~ After that , we call it a day .. because going to wake up early the next day .

21st Dec 2010

Apparently everyone is not having enough sleep . My cousins were so funny , they couldn't sleep and woke up at 4am , and decided for morning jog ..They got called me , but I simply ignored it ..haha acting sleep .
At the end , they were chased  by dog haha XD. And so around 6am , we started to go to the graveyard .
Ceremonies are being held there .After that , Eat all we can haha .. I ate damn lot that time .
First , Mee-hun , Big Pao , Pork , Chicken , Banana , Orange !! Wohoo !!!
haha . Seriously , eat non-stop on that day .. I wish I could get fatter !! But , nothing changed. I'm still that thin haha . But yea , I already promised Vicky that I'll get Fitter .. Once I said that, no one gonna change my decision .. =)
That's all . basically , we're just eating whole day haha . Reached home at 11pm ... fucking tired and late ..
Preparing to sleep , before sleep , I chased vicky sleep too .. haha She such a baby , anything also need me care .  That's all for the Ipoh trip , nothing interesting actually ..

Christmas is coming ...I was wondering how this year Christmas will be .. Really hope , that It's gonna be a good day for me .. after all Christmas is called as Season of Miracle .. Miracle? Hmm .. X)
Gotta go .. Bye

Hey guys , I just back from Genting Trip ..

It was supposed to be NewGenz (XDO Guild)  gathering , but it was canceled ..
So I'm just hanging out with my friends up there ..
Wasn't really fun at the first day .. Very bored =__=..
Couldn't get to meet her that much .. Really disappointed and sad ..
But nvm , still satisfy that I could met her , right?
We'll get better X) . Don't worry . Don't because of small stuff then affect our relationship k?

She went back . and I stayed overnight for one more day in Genting .. It was fun the next day .. Not bad =X

Failure .

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Failure ahhhh ...

I thought I was a good person to start with ..
I thought I could care you .. Won't hurt you ..
I promised you not to hurt you , but at the end , I still did it ..
My curiosity exchange with your sadness ..
If I would have known that , I swear I won't even try to think about it .

Baka de me ,
Never thought of your feeling .
Baka de me ,
wanted to slap myself ..
Baka de me ,
So wish that you could just hit me ,instead of crying alone .


Give me one more chance ...
I promise to treat you much better ...
I wanna take care you , Forever .
I wanna protect you , Forever .

Just one more chance ...
To let me prove that I am good enough for you ..
Just one more chance ...
To let you feel you are happy with me ...

I'm sorry . And This will be the last sorry from me , because I ain't gonna do something stupid to hurt you anymore . .

A Deeper Issue

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They say when you are hungry, everything tastes good and if you a re full, even honey will be loathsome. I was advised by someone never go shopping in the supermarket when you are hungry, you will buy way more than what you require. A great spread of smorgasbord for that matter, when you are hungry, you may put too much on your plate than you can handle.

When you are desperate to sell a property, you may end up selling it at a much lower value to help you solve your financial problem. But the issue here is never to respond immediately to a stimulus of dire need. Selling a house to pay your debts or having a meal to satisfy your hunger maybe a more straightforward issue. There is something more than a need for a partner that drives a man or woman to be desperate.

If you feel lonely and have had no relationship and suddenly one day you crave for a relationship and desperately go out to look for that ideal partner, be wary, it could be a deeper issue.
 If you do find a person or if someone who shows a lot of interest in you, at first you may respond to the attention to fill that void lurking in your heart.

If the person rejects you or even if the relationship works out you will be wondering why did you even get into this relationship in the first place. You may not even want that person. The reason is, that the deeper issue is not about being lonely and needing a partner, it could be a need for identity.
When someone loves you, the feelings of being wanted feels great. So one pursues a relationship to fill the void in his or her identity. This may go back to the root of being rejected as a child or parent not showing enough love or acceptance.

You will always go around finding a relationship to fill that need to be wanted. The right approach is it step back and ask yourself why are you feeling this way? =)

Passion Vs Goals

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We have heard it so many times that we should set goals in order to achieve what we want. Recently I was reading a magazine where the former Miss Malaysia who is now involved in social work and having set up a teaching centre for the refugee kids said, she does not set goals cause she has no discipline to follow it, she just does not procrastinate what she is doing.

I have also once heard from a study of some of the top students in a reputable college. Before graduation, they recorded the number of students who set goals to be a millionaire and the numbers that did not set any goals. After 20 years they were astonished to find that the group that set no goals, more than half of them became millionaires and the ones who set goals , none of them became millionaires.


I have understood from these two observations and many others of financially successful people and the ones who are not, I have come to the understanding that we are all already successful. The money we make does not measure our success. We are made by God to be successful .
What then is our vocation that will help us realize our full potential and maybe make us a few millions along the way? The key is Passion.

When a person is passionate, he or she will go all out to do that thing out of love for it and need not set time or goals to achieve something out of it. The fact that you are doing it is already a goal in itself.

Take for example photography, how many amateur photography work have we seen that has won prizes, some of them have taken it as a full time work and have become financially successful.
When your goal is making money, when the going gets tough, you might quit, but if you are passionate about something, nothing will hinder you from you doing what you love.

I am not asking you to give up your job now and pursue your lost passion. Take your passion as a hobby first, see the creativity that God has put in you to flourish.
What is your dream or passion that was shelved aside because your parents were against it, or others discouraged you or you were overwhelmed with responsibilities that you have put it aside?

Is it a dream to build model cars and planes? A hobby to experiment on designing something? Photography? Learning a musical instrument? decoration? A particular vocation that you love? Mountain climbing?
As long as there is breath in your lungs and strength in your arms and legs, go for it, don't let age or anything set you back on your dreams.

You have one shot at life, live it to the full.

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