This morning , I accidentally cut my finger while I'm about to shave moustache . So I had a bad feeling for today.
It's not that I believed all these stuffs . But that's what happening to me today .
When I'm about to go out . I received call from my mum . She was in deep trouble due to some circumstances .
She needs money to solve the problem . Actually , I already lent most of my savings to her . But still not enough to help her . She begged me to get her the money . It's not a good feeling having mum begging for you . I said I'll get her money no matter what .
Thinking which friends could help me... But it's really hard for me to ask from them . I don't like asking from friends . But how pathetic or embarassing it is , I still need to do it ... It's for my mum .
Asking friends like I'm a beggar or a person whose in debt ...Hate that feelings .
Most of them couldn't helped me . Can't blame them as they really can't help me .
So I continued to ask ask ask . I had to bear the feeling when asked my friends . And it's awkward when they rejected you ...
But , I still finally collected the money and gave it to my mum . I don't know whether she can solved it or not .
But, let's just move on first . What happens next , then only face it again . No Big Stuff !
No matter how pathetic am I , as long as it matters my family , I will do it ... =)
Just can blame myself for being so helpless . That little amount I also don't have .. F**king SUCK !
Just when I'm about to get my life better , I fall down back again .
Can't I be more useful ?
It's not that I believed all these stuffs . But that's what happening to me today .
When I'm about to go out . I received call from my mum . She was in deep trouble due to some circumstances .
She needs money to solve the problem . Actually , I already lent most of my savings to her . But still not enough to help her . She begged me to get her the money . It's not a good feeling having mum begging for you . I said I'll get her money no matter what .
Thinking which friends could help me... But it's really hard for me to ask from them . I don't like asking from friends . But how pathetic or embarassing it is , I still need to do it ... It's for my mum .
Asking friends like I'm a beggar or a person whose in debt ...Hate that feelings .
Most of them couldn't helped me . Can't blame them as they really can't help me .
So I continued to ask ask ask . I had to bear the feeling when asked my friends . And it's awkward when they rejected you ...
But , I still finally collected the money and gave it to my mum . I don't know whether she can solved it or not .
But, let's just move on first . What happens next , then only face it again . No Big Stuff !
No matter how pathetic am I , as long as it matters my family , I will do it ... =)
Just can blame myself for being so helpless . That little amount I also don't have .. F**king SUCK !
Just when I'm about to get my life better , I fall down back again .
Can't I be more useful ?
2 comments:
Cheer up babi ! (:
Cheer pigu xD
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